if you cannot accept me at my worst, you dont deserve me at my best.

Many have tried to define love, but on my own sense, its all about

ACCEPTANCE. Whether we admit it or not, there is no such thng as

perfect boy/girl or perfect couple. We may meet alot of different

people everyday, we may think that this One is better than that One, but

this NEW one will always have something that OLD one doesnt have

and vice versa.

If you have found someone who forgives you mistake after mistake,

who makes you feel good enough but still makes u want to be a better

 person, 

if you have found someone, who could still hug you after the

nth time of saying your lame "sorry" for doing another stupid thing,

if u have this one who undrstands that it may always be that way,-- you

doing things that pisses them off, 

if you have this someone that makes

you feel its Normal if you commit mistakes, 

that its perfectly fine to be clumsy and that no matter what you do, how difficult you may become they

would stay, simply because they accept you for being not the  perfect YOU,

..then you are one heck of a lucky soul..

Every Girl has a Drama queen in her!

** From the ancient friendster, i was able to see my old blogs. I still feel every word from it, only that, it sounded a different person from the past. here are some of my ka-emohan posts. im such a drama queen, i know right! :p

LoSs…

I know he’s there, but I fight hard the urge on looking his way. i know seeing him would only make me feel blue.

Seeing him would only make me think of everything I’ve ever wanted which I 

carelessly let go of, seeing him would only remind me how silly I am for letting go of a precious thing which was already in my hands, seeing him would only make me realize that my smiles aren’t real at all for I have already lost the reasons behind them and I know deep inside I’m slowly dying.

seeing him would only hurt for I know I wont have him, and its sickening to fight back the urge of wanting something you can never have.

 How do you move on when every time you tell yourself its over, you heart still insists? How do you convince that you’ve moved on and you’re doing just fine when you know you still cry to sleep just thinking of him? Its never

easy. No one said it would be. its so hard keeping hold of your sanity when all you  have is regrets.

The irony of all the ironies is why do we realize someone’s worth just when they’re gone? And the sad thing is we wont be able to let them know how much we care cause we let the moment passed us by.

 I know he is everything I wanted but I know he wont be mine. I guess life has just its own way of making us realize things, may it be the hard way or not, Im sure I have learned a lot…

I am not looking, but I gave in. just a glimpse of him made me smile to myself as I turned and  walk away. There he was, and I am here. There could just be no more ‘us..’ 

 ** and heres another one..

He doesnt know.. =(

For quite sometime now, ive been dragging myself out of d mess iv been int0, god knows, if i could only go back and und0 things from d past, hell yeah, i would.. but were talking about reality here.. i just cant.. =( 

i never denied anything.. i took all d blame.. i am taking all the blame why it has to end up like this.. i have caused him s0o0 much pain… 

i was the one who let g0 just like that.. i was the one who gave up what we had..

stupid of me.. and after a while, just when he was starting to get over me, out of d blue, reality hit me.. he meant the world t0 me.. he was d 1 for me.. the only one for me.. but the sad thing is, he got tired of the dramas and the chasing.. 

i got what i deserve.. i know i deserve all of these..

ive had to0 much of all of d sh*t.. its time i leave ssomething for myself.. i cant push myself to sum1 hu doesnt want to pull me back..  

i have to move on.. we both have hurt each other eventually..

but d fact that the world and the people ar0und him knew how much pain he had dealt with, dsnt mean he had suffered more.. what he dsnt know, and what he wont care to know, is how much i cry myself to sleep everynight knowing i could never have back which was once in my hands.. =( 

he d0esnt kn0w how much i love him..

he wont care to kn0w..

*if its meant t0 be, it will find its way..

if its not, it never was =(

- and i guess, it jus wasnt..

diabetically sweet ^^

i am a dessert person, im NOT saying i would skip the main course for the dessert, but its always like that, main course is a second choice, dessert is the priority. :P Well, everyone who knows me for quite long knows i would choose a chocobar over make up kits. Despite the fact that our family has a medical history of diabetes, that doesnt stop me indulging on my cravings.  i would die for chocolates. lol, that may sound exaggerated but i think thats quite a fact.  Ive often joked that i f i would be diagnosed to have the family's legacy, which  is having the diabetes,that wont come as a surprise no more! hahaha. I think whats worse is, i am a certified nurse, of course i know all the possible complications and i just hope its enough to stop me from giving in to sweet temptation.

badgirl'sdiary: its all about me. c=

badgirl'sdiary: its all about me. c=: "Early Childhood When and where were you born? born and raised in the magayon land, BICOL! :) on the 29th of march, year of the rabbit...."

its all about me. c=

Early Childhood

Name: Ma. katrina Ehra B. Concepcion

When and where were you born?  born and raised in the magayon land, BICOL! :) on the 29th of march, year of the rabbit. 

What adjectives would you use to describe your childhood?  Why?  fun 10x. i have always been the outgoing type; id choose bike over barbie dolls. :p

How would your parent(s) describe you as a child?  Why?  mean.  haha i have always been the primal reason why our maids dont last long. dont ask me, ask my parents!

Did you have any nicknames?  kc, case, meow, kuting :P

What were you most afraid of as a child?  ghost! 

What was your favorite subject to study? i dont study much even before. :P

Is there a teacher that you remember having been particularly influential? yesss. the late Ms. Francisco. she is our History Teacher. she has always been outspoken. and she has taught  me how good it is to be aware of whats happening in the country, and that there's always something we could do to change it.

Who was your first boy/girlfriend?  lol. duh. i never had a boyfriend til i was 18 :)

What was your favorite music/band/dance in high school?  i was a sucker for westlife and that britney spears. 

College

Did you attend college?  If so, which one?  If not, why? yes, because if not, my mom might kick me out of the house. thats why. lols

What subject(s) did you study and why?  all related to my course which is Nursing.

If you could do it again, would you take a different academic path, or are you satisfied with the route you followed? Yes. i have always wanted to be a pre-school teacher. or maybe journalism or maybe mass com. but definitely NOT Nursing.

Career

In addition to being paid money, how else has your career created value in your life? - ive met lots of interesting people, and few which have been close to me :)

Do you have any regrets regarding your career path?  errrrrrrrrrrrr.

What do you consider to be the best possible work environment? anywhere where  the best warm people  is:)

Who was the biggest influence in your career? - errrr. thats honestly hard to decide

Family

What does the word “family” mean to you? -- back up. world will kick you out, but family will stick around :)

In what ways have your parents influenced you the most?  one word, strenght.

Which of your parents do you most similar to and why?  my features from Mom, my complexion's from Dad

How are your relationships with your siblings? cool. we argue sometimes, but if ever someone mess with her, they have to go through me. i'll kill for my sister

Would you change anything about your relationships with them? no

Who do you admire most in your family and why?  mom. i admire her being strong for us.

Have you lost any family members to death?  Yess. My Dad. we lost him when i was just in Grade school. and we miss him dearly.

Love

Who was your first love? should i tell names? guess not! lol

Have you had your heart broken? you bet. it hurt like hell

Have you broken any hearts? i dint notice

General

What is your definition of “happiness”? as they say, its a matter of choice. c=

What is your happiest memory?  childhood memories

Your saddest?  dad passed away =(

What accomplishment are you most proud of?  i passed the board, i was happy for my mom. i know how hard she prayed for me to achieve that ^^

How do you hope to be remembered? someone who stil manage to smile even if her heart is breaking

How do you think people will remember you?  i have always been the funny one

Who is your biggest fan? haha. my classmates back in highschool calls me idol. i missed them, but i would have to say my baby jello is my biggest fan, he is as well my cheerleader. :)

Whose biggest fan are you? my mom

What do you like to do in your spare time? write. but so sleeep a lot now.

If you could possess one super-human power, what would it be? making someone happy

What is your greatest fear? losing people i care most about :(

What is your greatest hope? i hope

What are you really bad at that you’d love to be great at? dancing. :P

What do you think happens after death? we start living again.

If you could be anyone in history, who would it be? gabriela silang. woman power!

What are the main lessons you’ve learned in life? life is what you make it c=  cliche, but true.